it's one in the mornin and feeling pretty shitty - don't have to work tomorrow since it's the holiday and I just feel shitty - cause "i don't know how to relax" and i "can't relax" --- whatever!!! and of course it's all my fault cause I "started it" - i don't even know what I started - i hardly talked...i just sat here and took it...what a ripoff. cause now the drunk that berated me has fallen asleep and I just sit here sober and brooding over hurtful words....